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pain

Pain never let go..I most of times think that how is hard to survive like this..how all people out there hold up there emotions and I can't..I m losing my mind so fast I don't remember what I do what I say..it's just felt so alone and idk so whenever you try to build smtg or talk to smtg it looks desperation instead of normal conversation..I really don't want to live like this it hurts a lot like when you sleep your head starts to hurts a lot ..Ur chest get tightened with abnormal normal pulsation going on .. idk how everything gonna be alright but I hope someday it will be all good and when I remind all of this again I could say that yeah I lived it fully ..the person without motive is just moving on passing by the notion ntg else and that describes me .. personally people are so busy in themselves so whenever I want to talk it feels ignorant but allr ..I really need someone to divert my mind ..helpless but it doesn't work this way crazy..I m totally hurt but I m f...

survival

New year resolution - I don't want to be here by the starting of the next year I promise this loyalty to me myself and I got real 

love you

My all money has always been wasted on clearing backlog otherwise I haven't done something good or something that enjoyed me thak you for today for making me feel low Goodnight 

illsssss

So do you ever think in Ur life why you are like this like you don't want to be you can obviously get change but have you ever gave it a thought..I always think why to live a life like this isn't this boring or something like that because some people really enjoying their life and having freedom of doing anything doesn't mean life is boring it's just you are lazy and less on income or maybe you don't want to go alone but that all doesn't matter when you have really go to go it's all get even FS..I just like to be in room of closed lights with high intensity of sleep and that's the perfect thing I ever done in one whole week but I also missed my posting so somehow I missed it also I mean not missed just there is actually no friends of mine who could really help me so yeah and I really don't want to attend lectures bcz feeling of weakness and all other physical abnormalities and somehow I will start going from tomorrow u gonna see someday lol#take care...